i hardly ever post how i feel or what’s going on in my life but right now i need to get it out. i feel alone, i feel like no body cares any more. i have the greatest friends in my life but i feel like its one sided, like i care for them more than they do me. im worried about my mum and everybody expects me to be the happiest person but im actually dying inside. i act like im the strongest person but i cant cope with any of this any more. 

Update. 

I’ve had a chest infection for say 5 weeks now and it’s still not gone. I woke up this morning feeling terrible. I need a man in my life so he fetch me things and give me cuddles. I go to Florida in 3 weeks and 3 day’s and I am so bloody excited! I have also made my mind up with what I want to do next year and I am going to go back to college as I know what I’ll be like if I move away to Manchester for University.